The girl

She was there, always. Sitting, sipping coffee. Everyday, a look of loneliness etched upon her face. She was never alone, but it was easy to see she was lonely.

She had family. She knew people, but always that look clouded her deep brown eyes. One day a boy appeared in her life, he was different to the rest. He loved her with all his heart, and she him. But, despite his love, the loneliness still crept back in. For her family were far away, and often difficult to deal with. His family were close, happy, content. And whilst they embraced her, still an empty space sat in her heart. She locked it away for a while, the loneliness, but soon it crept back in. She found it difficult to stay in touch with people. She was scared to get close, afraid of being abandoned, as she had been so many times in her life before. By people she loved so dear. She was afraid of being taken for granted, because she loved too much and trusted too easily. So, she stayed close to the boy she so adored, and allowed him to shield her from the world.

Slowly the loneliness overtook her, and a small part of her soul tried to escape, back to the world of humans, of contact. She crept back to this world. Peered around the corner of humanity. Tip-toed into acquaintances. Then, from nowhere, as if fallen from the stars came an incredible person. A spaceman. He was bright, funny, welcoming. He made her feel at home. Later, the spaceman, brought along his beautiful queen; she too was a wonder to behold. She was similar to the lonely girl, she was witty and intriguing, captivating. The girl dreamed of being like her. Of being like her and the spaceman.

It wasn't long before she grew to love them both dearly, before she felt more at home than she had since the day her father, grandfather and sister had left her 28 years ago. She knew one day that the boy she loved, would grow to love them too.

Now I see the girl, staring back at me in the mirror. There is something in her eyes ... the loneliness dims. She is still afraid of being abandoned, of losing them. But, she is willing to love them for as long as they will keep her in their lives.

An actual blog ... of sorts!

It's been a weird week! A weird week indeed. Full of work, strangeness and lots of videogames. Well ok, mostly one videogame. Halo 3 must be learned. I must become bad-ass.

Well maybe slightly okay at it, at least ;o)!

I think I've fast become addicted to it.

And I <3 it.